Learning....

I FIT ! there it was in black and white..ME..well, my faith, my interest; Paganism. I was in deep now..I recall checking out every book I could and even going to libraries in neighboring cities to see what they had..

First definition...I read was "Earth dweller" Heathen...what?

What I gathered from over 50 books was Paganism is a broad term , really tuned to each persons own interpretation..and that's the whole theory behind it. They can give you a broad spectrum definition, but being a "Pagan" means you define it to fit yourself..while feeling like you're ALL the definitions..
( that was hard to understand right) meaning..Paganism is a SOUL felt way of being..its a natural state of who you are.

For..written and black and white definition go here http://isle-of-avalon.com/pagan.htm

To me, Paganism is a way of being, its not something I decided to be, IT decided to be me...
it is everything who I am, I love all things that live, I 100% believe that the Christian 'God" was one of the many Deities ( Gods and Goddesses) followers, and he was given the task of creating life on this planet (earth) before he was given  eternal life as a deity ~ and so it began..life on earth.....

There is so much more about Paganism and about my faith .....to be continued

Barbara did a reading...

Barbara was a long time friend of my moms, she was a sensitive and was able to read palms..she was very spiritually open. She read my palm one day, and pretty much nailed my future which has now become my life...she new how many marriages and children would have. Sadly a few years ago Barbara lost her fight against cancer., I will forever be grateful for what she showed me and taught me... and made me spiritually the person I am today and also AVA but I will get to her later...

As she was reading my palm, we talked about religion...about hers specifically...I shared with her my thoughts, they were random and unplanned. I told her I felt a deep connection to all life, the trees, the hills, the ants...I loved the earth, the sky, I was fascinated by all water...and I had a deep desire to figure out where I came of these feelings and thoughts..why I would cry when a butterfly died, or cry when a fire storm would tear through the woods..why I gazed up at the sky at night..why lying in an open field was better than going anywhere in the world..Why I cant seem to grasp the conceptt that once a person dies..they are simply gone...when they're not....She laughed and said "Kelly, there is nothing wrong with you, you sill girl. You are a Pagan" She said she was a Wiccan, and she knew exactly how I felt and what I was seeing..( Wiccan, will come up later) she told me briefly what a Pagan was and instructed me to go to the library to learn more...

The beginning.......

I had gone to school with friends of all religious faiths and I felt I never fit in. My parents were not faith loving or religious people at all, so what I believed and felt was up to me ~

Years passed and I felt no connection to any religion the closest was the Mormon religion and that's because of their strong roots with family. I loved reading and learning about the Native American paths to spirituality and tried to understand it to some degree. So like I said, after years of going to church and not going to church I just finally gave up and called myself 'nothing', no religion what so ever....until Barbra B enlightened me, when I was the age of 15 ~